| Current mood: |  confused |
Drama, drama and drama... and all boy related....
Ok what a huge weekend.. or atleast i didnt think it was til i jumped on here...
Ok so last week was interesting when i caught up with my ex and realised i dont think ill ever be over him... well i mean i dont want him but i do not want to know that hes with anyone else... 6 years after we break up and it makes me physically ill to think about some other chick touching him...
Then i had the 18th bday.. which actually turned out to be heaps of fun... i realised that even though most of my mates there were just turning 18 theyve all got substance... I must admit ive never been impressed with ppl under 22.. generally... i dont even want to know how bad i was back then... but these girls are wonderful... So yeah it was a good night... I met the girls old coach... who was the only person close to my age there... we chatted all night and it was clear he was interested... hes not bad at all and im sure hes a beautiful man.. but im not sure that there was enough there for me to follow through.. or that worse im only considering it cos im lonely... who knows.. but the girls seem interested in making sure we meet up again so well see...
Then in one of my dumber moments.. well no not dumb cos its started the ball rolling.. then again that might be why its dumb.. i got tika to call rob.. to see if he'd answer and sure enough he did... she and another drunk mate talked to him for 15 mins.. asking why he hadnt called me for 3 weeks.. he basically said that i hadnt been contacting him.. even tho ive emailed.. called txted and sent him bday cards... but anyways it was just a whole heap of excuses again...
I got online today and yup... heres the email i got from rob....
....wow.Thanks at least you bothered.Yea not dead yet.I stayed in touch with
youalmost EVERY SINGLE day i was away in Goa.On my way back in Bombay i was on the
way to the airport fr my flight back to Calcutta at 5am when i stopped to buy a
smoke cause it was so cold.One of those rare times i wanted one.The bastard taxi
driver drove off wth a small bag tht i had my wallet in.Had abt $100 in it and 4
cards.Mad scramble to cancel the cards and i missed me flight.Nightmare.Apalling
train ride back to Cal.and not a word frm you.I HAD maintained or tried to maintain
a proper level of comm. but you decided to wait for 3 weeks before you missed
me??then you sent me a F**k ALL mail how YOU're moving on and blah blah.I wondered
wht was going on.I'm still wondering what if i'd died or something?You wouldn't have
even known.I missed you every day.I did.But i have questions now.So there.And wht's
all this strange people callin me up frm your phone?Rittika's fine...but some
strange
other girl (who wanted to know what i was going to order for dinner!!??) frm Detroit??
R
All just excuses again... i wrote back.. and stupid me left it open.. but im mad.. and im glad im mad... he deserves mad... i deserve better than him... its all just bullshit and one day ill meet someone whos worth me.. or ill just get strong enough to ignore him completely...
Nick wrote back to me.. he seems like a nice boy.. still msging through a site rather than through his email.. bit weird.. ohh well... is nice to get something..
Yesterday i went to the movies with P and it was ummmm interesting.. the movie i mean... We went and saw the fountain.. and i pretty much had a huh??? look on my face the whole way through... it was weird... It was really nice meeting P finally since weve known each other for a while on here and hes my most regular commentor... Hes a sweet guy... very sorry i caused him trouble with his girl.. hope that gets worked out.. would be nice to keep my movie buddy... god i hate going tot he movies by myself...
ANyways i better get going.. an hour til 'so you think you can dance'.... love that show...
Hope alls well
Luv Miss
....wow.Thanks at least you bothered.Yea not dead yet.I stayed in touch with
youalmost EVERY SINGLE day i was away in Goa.On my way back in Bombay i was on the
way to the airport fr my flight back to Calcutta at 5am when i stopped to buy a
smoke cause it was so cold.One of those rare times i wanted one.The bastard taxi
driver drove off wth a small bag tht i had my wallet in.Had abt $100 in it and 4
cards.Mad scramble to cancel the cards and i missed me flight.Nightmare.Apalling
train ride back to Cal.and not a word frm you.I HAD maintained or tried to maintain
a proper level of comm. but you decided to wait for 3 weeks before you missed
me??then you sent me a F**k ALL mail how YOU're moving on and blah blah.I wondered
wht was going on.I'm still wondering what if i'd died or something?You wouldn't have
even known.I missed you every day.I did.But i have questions now.So there.And wht's
all this strange people callin me up frm your phone?Rittika's fine...but some
strange
other girl (who wanted to know what i was going to order for dinner!!??) frm Detroit??
R
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