missas_fable (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} missas_fable) wrote,@ 2007-02-06 15:58:00 |
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Mersondol forte fuzziness
2nd day of sickness.. cept now the pain is just a dull pressure in my skull... I went to the doctor.. to ask if there was anything other than drugs that could help me... being that my liver or whatever is going to die with all the pain killers i take and he said.. pretty much no.. that i have a condition and that medication is all that can help with the pain.. he then prescribed me forte version of the stuff i usually take and yeah... now not only am i still taking drugs but im taking heavier stuff so in the end not even the simple stuff is gonna work anymore.. not that the simple stuff does.. but you know what i mean... ill be even more ummm whats the word for it... immune.... resistant... fun fun fun...
Having said that the forte stuff is interesting... the pain has changed.. i can feel its still there.. under the surface.. but its being smootherd... and im feeling all fuzzy.. even walking feels fuzzy.. like im floating... very very weird...
So tomorrow ill be back at work... hopefully... i have my PDF on thursday... hate that ive been sick in the week leading up to it... makes me stress about the boss.. which doesnt help with headaches... its a shit cycle..
the last few days have been hard.. feeling very alone.. before this ive always had someone aroudn to fuss over me.. ie my mum and now that shes gone im alone.. and being sick is sooooooo not fun when you dont have someone caring bout you...
Robs been sending me im worried msgs but its all just talk... if he cared.. hed be here... he hasnt even called me.. we havent talked...
Nick is struggling to send me emails everyday.. saying he has nothing to say but fears that if he doesnt email.. he could lose me... and that .. using a fishing analogy... he hasnt had a nibble for so long that hes scared if he doesnt hold onto me.. he might lose me... cute.. kinda makes me smile on the inside...
I feel like i should be doing something productive with my time... since its not 38 degrees today... but the cloud over my head that is mersondol forte is eating away at any motivation i have...
I swear if the dogs bark one more time.. im going to strangle them... headaches and dogs communicating is a very very bad thing.. specially as it requires more noise ie me telling them off to shut them up...
I wish uni had started already.. im all pumped to start... i told myself id organise the last years folders today... but like i said.. no motivation... i swear im drowning in this stuff... sorry if this entry is abit weird... im not quite sure what im talking bout... Might just go nap some more...
Love you all
2nd day of sickness.. cept now the pain is just a dull pressure in my skull... I went to the doctor.. to ask if there was anything other than drugs that could help me... being that my liver or whatever is going to die with all the pain killers i take and he said.. pretty much no.. that i have a condition and that medication is all that can help with the pain.. he then prescribed me forte version of the stuff i usually take and yeah... now not only am i still taking drugs but im taking heavier stuff so in the end not even the simple stuff is gonna work anymore.. not that the simple stuff does.. but you know what i mean... ill be even more ummm whats the word for it... immune.... resistant... fun fun fun...
Having said that the forte stuff is interesting... the pain has changed.. i can feel its still there.. under the surface.. but its being smootherd... and im feeling all fuzzy.. even walking feels fuzzy.. like im floating... very very weird...
So tomorrow ill be back at work... hopefully... i have my PDF on thursday... hate that ive been sick in the week leading up to it... makes me stress about the boss.. which doesnt help with headaches... its a shit cycle..
the last few days have been hard.. feeling very alone.. before this ive always had someone aroudn to fuss over me.. ie my mum and now that shes gone im alone.. and being sick is sooooooo not fun when you dont have someone caring bout you...
Robs been sending me im worried msgs but its all just talk... if he cared.. hed be here... he hasnt even called me.. we havent talked...
Nick is struggling to send me emails everyday.. saying he has nothing to say but fears that if he doesnt email.. he could lose me... and that .. using a fishing analogy... he hasnt had a nibble for so long that hes scared if he doesnt hold onto me.. he might lose me... cute.. kinda makes me smile on the inside...
I feel like i should be doing something productive with my time... since its not 38 degrees today... but the cloud over my head that is mersondol forte is eating away at any motivation i have...
I swear if the dogs bark one more time.. im going to strangle them... headaches and dogs communicating is a very very bad thing.. specially as it requires more noise ie me telling them off to shut them up...
I wish uni had started already.. im all pumped to start... i told myself id organise the last years folders today... but like i said.. no motivation... i swear im drowning in this stuff... sorry if this entry is abit weird... im not quite sure what im talking bout... Might just go nap some more...
Love you all
