missas_fable (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} missas_fable) wrote,@ 2007-03-03 22:36:00 |
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Im abit better... 2 hours later...
Its a few hours since my last post... im feeling abit more calm.. less sick to my stomach... im talking to ezzy on the net.. he makes me smile.. he makes me feel like im not horrible.. he also lives in sweden or something hehe... he is lovely tho.. i managed not to talk to rob.. not cos i didnt try but cos he phone is out of service... i think ill call dom when i get off here.. i need to hear his voice.. i need some kind of clue that im still out there and someone still wants me... Its going to be hard to wake up tomorrow cos i know ill think of nick.. or the fact that i have no msg... and ill be lonely... im big on possibility... on needing one to keep me happy or atleast fighting off the loneliness.. tomorrows gonna be hard when i realise there is none... I could follow up my convo with dom... we tend to get caught up in each other when we talk alot.. i could call him.. and try and start something again... and maybe he will come back to oz... it would solve everything if he did... i could love him again.. he is a man worthy of my time... hes a man i could marry... life would be so simple if i could have him again.. but alas its not... he is in england :P and if he doesnt come to oz soon... hell meet someone and well never be again....
im feeling ok.. sorry bout the mad... sick to my stomach post before... i cant promise ill be ok tomorrow.. but im managing tonight... Love you all
Its a few hours since my last post... im feeling abit more calm.. less sick to my stomach... im talking to ezzy on the net.. he makes me smile.. he makes me feel like im not horrible.. he also lives in sweden or something hehe... he is lovely tho.. i managed not to talk to rob.. not cos i didnt try but cos he phone is out of service... i think ill call dom when i get off here.. i need to hear his voice.. i need some kind of clue that im still out there and someone still wants me... Its going to be hard to wake up tomorrow cos i know ill think of nick.. or the fact that i have no msg... and ill be lonely... im big on possibility... on needing one to keep me happy or atleast fighting off the loneliness.. tomorrows gonna be hard when i realise there is none... I could follow up my convo with dom... we tend to get caught up in each other when we talk alot.. i could call him.. and try and start something again... and maybe he will come back to oz... it would solve everything if he did... i could love him again.. he is a man worthy of my time... hes a man i could marry... life would be so simple if i could have him again.. but alas its not... he is in england :P and if he doesnt come to oz soon... hell meet someone and well never be again....
im feeling ok.. sorry bout the mad... sick to my stomach post before... i cant promise ill be ok tomorrow.. but im managing tonight... Love you all
